Humble

Can't believe it's been a month since my last post.
Lif is, and continues to be, very intense and a deeply humbling reality.
Last night I was in my dance class, this time taught by the founder Gabrielle Roth who left us (the ones seeking freedom) with the question: Do we have the discipline to be truly free?
In this struggle lies the answer. Discipline is freedom. Routine and commitment are necessary if my desire is to be truly free. I know this and it continues to show up in my life. It's pointed out to me by various people and it becomes known by the consequences of my often less responsible (or thought-thru) actions.
Routine is everything. Attitude is important too. Commitment to being a better person in the world helps too.

Humble

Can't believe it's been a month since my last post.
Lif is, and continues to be, very intense and a deeply humbling reality.
Last night I was in my dance class, this time taught by the founder Gabrielle Roth who left us (the ones seeking freedom) with the question: Do we have the discipline to be truly free?
In this struggle lies the answer. Discipline is freedom. Routine and commitment are necessary if my desire is to be truly free. I know this and it continues to show up in my life. It's pointed out to me by various people and it becomes known by the consequences of my often less responsible (or thought-thru) actions.
Routine is everything. Attitude is important too. Commitment to being a better person in the world helps too.

Deep Insight

Feels like I'm evolving faster than I can grasp. Perhaps an effect of being in NYC - the city that never sleeps.. Anyhow, the last few weeks have been intense to say the least. I had a bicycle accident that put me down for about ten days. About the same time I picked up a GI infection that made me unable to do much for almost 2 weeks and also made me very depressed. I'm moving to Park Slope, Brooklyn (for a month to begine with). My boyfriend and I broke up. and I had an interview for a research position that went extremly well (invited for a second round next week)!

Toward the end of my coaching session with Fernando today, he asks about what's really going to make me commit to my goals (weekly planning, daily meditation & yoga, yoga class at least 1/week). I pause and then it comes to me. Of course I'm doing these things for me.. however, I am also doing these things for the people in my life (and for the world at large)! Wow.

New realization

After being away from my apartment and my routines for two weeks, I realize - among other things - the importance of my environment on my overall wellbeing and consequently, success. Looking back, I see a pattern. That's why I ended up in NYC.

Being someone who easily get out of balance, the last couple of weeks have been all but productive in terms of staying on track with my goals. I've simply been too tired/unfocused to do anything of value, even sleep! Now, what's the practical resolution? To make sure that I surround myself with beauty and functionality; creating a safe home environment where I can recharge and rejoice life... while sticking to my rituals!

Through working with Fernando, I finally understand that my life is NOW, and it's not waiting. What am I waiting for? Better health? luck? Either I'm changing my standards (not happening) or get my act together. As simple as it may sound, it's a challenge. While I recognize the importance of organization etc, I fight structure on certain levels. Well, that's all changing.

Back on my feet again..

After a whirlwind of unexpected developments, I'm slowly getting back on track. I made a new friend who desperately needed a place to stay and I ended up subletting my apartment to her while staying with my boyfriend Gautam for the next couple of weeks. In terms of work, I'll got a temp job as a nanny(!) for the next three weeks. Very exciting! I spent the last week preparing for move, and the past weekend getting situated in my new home. I realize, again, how easily I get off balance. Yet I feel much more aware of my limitations and needs. I
am riding the waves of life, accepting and working with comes my way and this feels good. Our ultimate goal is to flow (is it not?), not resistance. Isn't it miraculous how big of shift a change of attitude can make?

Extraordinary week

Clarity in the midst of craziness. That's how the entire past week was for me. Not much time to think.. yet I haven't felt this clear and motivated in years! I finally got out off the brain fog. Instead of simply realizing what I need to do, I now actually take steps toward reaching my goals. This no longer feels like an daunting task but something that's natural and exciting. Instead of waiting for people to respond to me, I am taking action hence clearly communicating that I take responsibility for my life.

Being able to translate the flow of dance, rhythms, music into my daily activities has always been a dream. Each and every day feels as I'm getting closer to translate the flow into everything I do, including my interactions. Through being present and focusing on what's truly important to my growth, instead of everyday smaller tasks; I become a "bigger" person - one who's on track with her life!

This past Thursday I experienced my first coaching..

This past Thursday I experienced my first coaching session with Fernando.
Amazing.
I didn't have any particular expectations other than I knew it would be extraordinary. It was. Plenty of food for thought!
Thursday, my coaching day, was somewhat crazed and I didn't have much time to think about my experience. Yet, I carried certain parts with my throughout the weekend.
I dance. My dance Friday night was one of a huge personal breakthrough. I never felt as free, flowing and very much in touch with myself; body and soul. I danced my heart out and didn't care. No self-criticism, merely observation. Honest pain, presence, and pure joy!
My experience working with Fernando, making new discoveries through visualization, provides me with a new perspective that I'm able to bring with me in my daily life and use to my advantage. This process can be similar to have a new pair of glasses with which to interpret reality.

Thank you Fernando!

First post..

.. to my newly created blog!
Sunday is my favourite day of the week.
New beginnings, planning the week ahead.
Free time.
Chilling.
Spent part of the day relaxing on a rock on the beach - New Jersey shore.
First time for me and I was pleasantly surprised.
Not many people.
Beautiful white and black sand, a beautiful mix
The ocean, the sun, the sand - magic to my soul.
Back in NYC rejuvenated.